"Sam, you are weird!"
"Sam, why did you do that?"
"Sam, is that what you called as creativity?"
"Is sam just weird but not creative?"
Hello, Samatha is here! :) I am back again with blogging in my own website, which is supposed to be something that is done regularly every twice a week but I have been busy with home works.
So, back to the title of the post: "Sam, you are weird!"
Have you all been told that in your life? or is it just me?
Me thinking what is going on with my head
For me, yes, I have been told that I am weird, too different, rebel and just not the normal type of person that people expected me to be. In the beginning of my teenage years, I was into anime and art like really into it to the point I am obsessed with it. Some classmates might considered me as "nerd" or "weird" but sometimes "lame". It is really nothing new about that, being told that I am weird as heck. HA.
But,
I think I was actually quite sad and confused by the stereotype that people are talking about because for me, I was just passionately falling in love with a certain things. Nothing is wrong about it. It is very weird that society expect us to be this kind of people, or this group of people will expect you to be "cool" like them. I sometimes think that I was mentally bullied but I do not even understand what was happening around me during that time. It just passed by like that.
Just another bad dream I thought that time
Now, I am 22 years old who have passed that "bad" time of my life that shaped who I am now as a person, a lot has changed and some does not really change at all. I could say that I am already move on from anything that have happened during my high school years that have killed some part of me and my friends. It is just perks of growing up, you know, emotional roller coaster and drama. Honestly, I love my high school year and I love going to school after the hard time. School was fun and full experience in creativity. We (Me and friends) managed to build a epic scale of decoration for our events for several times. We slept late at night, working, painting and cutting styrofoam. I had the best time of my life. IT WAS AMAZING. Still, sometimes, you have people that question your ability or creativity, the type of people that could not accept something as it is. You wonder, I wonder, am I doing the right thing? Is this normal? Or just different? What I have done in school, is it normal? Who knows.
But, I know how much I have enjoyed that time of my life doing something that I love and passionate about with good friends and teachers that giving you such a big amount of support and love.
I believe that we are people that are passionate about things that makes us go crazy and obsessed. It is just passionate love to something that are abstract and it does not love you back in human way. It is just something I enjoy and love doing without no specific reason, I just enjoy it. And, people think I am weird, why did I do that with no pay? why do you that epic scale if you can do small one? Why do you want to make it so massive and just shocking?
From that, from all this time, from everything that I have experienced in life so far, I could give you one reason:
"People do not like original, they are afraid of something different and unfamiliar."
I mean, yeah, I am kinda weird but so what?
I do not give a damn, really, sometimes. It is just the F (Feeling) of my personality is coming out HAHAHA.
What I really want to say is that, be different, be weird, quirky and hella creative but be humble and kind about it. Accept critics and opinions on others, understand the people, the audience. If people do not accept you, then, it is okay. Do what makes you happy and comfortable. Nothing will go wrong. I hope so!
To add more,
we are all have our hidden personality that are hidden in our concious, it became unconcious. This personality is afraid to be out there because of judgement of people. It is afraid to not be accept in the society. This is theory based on Carls Jung's The Shadow and Sigmund Freud's Hidden Personality.
Read more on books about it:
Sigmund Freud's : https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B00N47UOIE/ref=oh_aui_d_detailpage_o03_?ie=UTF8&psc=1
Carls Jung: https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B00R6BIDG4/ref=oh_aui_d_detailpage_o07_?ie=UTF8&psc=1